I really have no choice in my life right now other than to be patient. Ok, if I'm honest with myself, there are several other options; I could choose to mope about, I could choose to be a depressing person to be around, or to dwell on the distance between my husband and I, or I could choose to be resentful. I could choose a lot of negativity right now.
But I choose joy. In that, I am in turn, patient.
I'm choosing to focus on every day as it comes:
Loving my son in the way 1 Corinthians 13 describes love. Praying. Reading my Bible. Praying with my son. Singing thanks-giving songs. Talking with my husband (skype/email). Talking with my son about his Daddy. Being thankful for every good thing in my life right now. Being a joy to be around, making others smile and going out of my way to do nice things for others.
If I'm still honest, I'm not 100% perfect at doing everything on that list diligently. But I try to do it with integrity. Where I fail one day, the next day I'll work on it.
My life circumstances are pretty unusual right now. Not a lot of people have been in the same boat, but some have, and that's helpful.
We're in the 'process' of moving to another country. It really is a process. Step by step, day by day.
My husband is in that other country, job hunting, setting up, finding an awesome church. Our son and I are waiting for immigration visas to be processed. It could take a few more months yet, we don't know exactly when we'll all be together again. But we will, and that's how long we'll wait.
Choosing joy, purposefully.
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